she did actually think that in the moment he closes this door , she’ll cry .. break down .. she’ll ………

but ! .. nothing of this happened

she just gazed at the door for a moment and then , relaxed in her seat , she sighed

"oooooh yes ", now she can breathe more easily

she got herself a piece of chocolate and slowly , savouring its taste , this taste of freedom , as sweet as this chocolate , and things began to clear up

she’s happy !  she can see it , wildly happy!

she’s back !  and how she missed her old self

she can be herself again , doing what she wants to do , the way she wants it and (.) full stop !

no trying to please anyone anymore , it got her out of her nerves already ! he made her believe things she didn’t want to believe in

she made things just to please him , but didn’t please her

so many changes in her life for him , while he did nothing !

“ yes , she’s the woman , she’s the one who has to change ! , but he’s the MAN , no change , he’s born whole and complete !”

Oh , how she hated herself for it ! as if she’s the one who needs him and he doesn’t need her

But no , why needing him ?

She’s turning this page , with a new beginning , no more compromises

“ Mr love , take me as I am , or get out of my way “ , that’s her new motto

The taste of chocolate is still in her tongue , doing what she likes seems so easy , why was it so hard before ?

Was she afraid of gaining some weight ? because of him ? did she have to be miss super slim for his taste ?!

It’s her weight for god’s sake , it’s her body

She’s the one who’s in control here

She’s the queen of her land , her flag and her colors , on her property

16-7-2010